Rolling On

I just saw my last post was almost three months ago. I am no further along in setting up study than I was then. I can do all my day-to-day stuff down here now but upstairs still holds loads of stuff. This is a perfect example of my current situation.

I am behind. I am behind at work, behind at home, behind in car maintenance, yard maintenance, laundry, grocery shopping is done totally last minute, nothing else left to eat in the house got to go right now, my days are flying past and I am getting further and further behind. It has been terribly hectic.

It has gotten so bad that I am no longer sure if it is really bad or if I have slipped into a mode of anxiety and I am causing most of it. I feel behind and overwhelmed all the time then I get a little spare time and I don't use it effectively. Then I feel even more overwhelmed. I think it is a vicious cycle that I can't seem to stop.

I am trying to breathe deeply often, focus on getting something accomplished every day, just at least one thing totally done and over with. When I start to feel overwhelmed, I am trying to turn it around and go do something that will mark something off my list.

Part of it is just summer, work is busier, we are busier in the evenings, we have many lake weekends. I just need to keep breathing deeply.